I recently realised that I’m now over five years seizure free.
Having controlled epilepsy brings conflicting emotions. The majority of the time it’s great, yet life is never perfect, because life never is. 😄
I used to look at the glistening goal of being seizure free, to me, it was the solution to a my problems but I was wrong.
- My epilepsy hadn’t magically disappeared. It’s part of me, even if it’s dormant, I’ve accepted that now.
- People still had problems – friends, colleagues, potential partners etc. Would learn that I had epilepsy and regardless of whether it was controlled or not it was an issue for them. I wasn’t expecting that. Always remember – If anyone has an issue with, walk away they are not worth your time.
- I felt I had more to lose – I now had a record ‘x’ amount of time seizure free and I would be doubly disappointed when it would come crashing down. I then had a car, what if I lost that? But finally I realised whatever happens will happen, you have to live in the moment and enjoy the good days.
And I believe that’s crucial, appreciating those good days and although hard, worrying and less letting go of the small stresses in life.
I’m so utterly grateful for how my health has been recently. This year has been great, here’s to the next!