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Final Update : Are you a Daffodil or a Dandelion?

Final Update : Are you a Daffodil or a Dandelion?

You might remember an old post of mine that mentioned that I was surprised to discover one of my favourite flowers (the hydrangea), had been damaged by the frost. 

I looked at the weeds in the garden (I have many), and they had survived unscathed. It made me realise that people are very much the same. What can effect one person can hardly bother another.

Due to its damage, I didn’t think the hydrangea would have any flowers this year. 

Over the weeks I have been amazed as I have seen the burnt-like leaves disappearing and big blue flowers emerging.

So if things are not going your way, if you’re like the frost-bitten, destroyed flower that I saw only a few weeks ago, they is always a chance that your future will be bright again. Anything is possible. 

Thanks for reading, 

Becky 😊

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The Anxiety of Epilepsy

The Anxiety of Epilepsy

In my last blog I mentioned the anxiety that’s attached to epilepsy. This is a very natural thing that everyone with epilepsy will feel. The uncertain feeling whether something bad is going to happen.

Being invited somewhere or wanting to make plans, but due to feeling unwell or uncertain about things you suddenly cancel everything thinking it’s better to be safe than sorry.

For me, I’ve suffered with auras sometimes weeks before a seizure would eventually happen. The moment a tiny one would happen I would worry and panic, and stay in the house…just in case.

As you can imagine, this did great things for my social life, and many times no serious seizures ever occurred. But I noticed that the more I worried over my auras the more intense they would become.

I decided to record in a diary every time I had an aura. I also noted how I was feeling at the time. If I was tired, stressed etc.  When I looked back over the weeks and months I realised I could explain why every aura might have occurred.

I made sure I avoided stressful situations (when possible), I would make sure I had plenty of sleep, I started drinking more water, eating healthier and taking better care of myself in general all in a bid for better health.

When auras appeared, I would realise, ‘oh, I’m tired,’ and get some sleep asap. But the most important thing I saw was that the knot in my stomach that I had always experienced, had now disappeared when I suffered an aura. And not only that but week on week my auras were declining as my medication began to work for me.

On reflection I wonder that for me those initial few auras were causing me to panic, producing excess adrenaline – which your body doesn’t need at that time, exasperating the situation.

I have found remaining calm /removing the anxiety to be extremely helpful on my journey through epilepsy.

Becky

 

 

Epilepsy Positivity

Epilepsy Positivity

OK, this might be hard, I know. How can you look at epilepsy, the condition that takes away your independence and strength, and look at it positively?  Trust me there have been many days where I have hated what’s been happening to me and felt weak. I’m sure you have felt the same, its natural.

One time, I had been feeling down for days and it dawned on me that I could dwell on my sorrows for as long as I wanted – it’s not going to change my situation, my epilepsy was now a part of me and I could either keep fighting and be fearful of it, or I could accept it and embrace it. And if it happens, it happens. I just have to remember it’s not my fault.

I questioned the reasoning of how this ended up in my life, ‘why me’ – but it’s not going alter anything.  I quickly opened my eyes to the world around me, yes I my condition is nasty and I can’t do some of the things my friends do. But compared to so many other people in the world I am extremely lucky.

I noticed how much my family, and friends loved and cared for me. They don’t always show it in a mushy way, but they are they by my side when I need them.

Many philosophers and religions believe that we are here in life to learn lessons. I  then thought that maybe having epilepsy as part of my life is something that I need to learn from and be comfortable with.

Epilepsy can be a worrying and frightening experience for many people. I discovered that looking at my epilepsy in more of a positive light, helped remove a huge amount of anxiety for me.

However you currently feel about epilepsy, I hope everyone with epilepsy will be able to be positive and free from anxiety.

Becky 🙂

 

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Keeping Relaxed

Keeping Relaxed

Many people who have epilepsy find that the stresses of day-to-day life can aggravate their condition.

During one of my most stressful times – university where I was also battling a crazy family life, people were suggesting for me to take up yoga, but I couldn’t find the time, spare money or a lift to the classes.

Naturally, I find doing the things that make you happy to be an excellent way of reducing stress.

But even then, I have had trouble sleeping.

One effective way of relaxing I find is through meditation, I listen to recordings on YouTube before I go to sleep, as this is the time my mind is really overactive.  I find these recordings to be incredibly effective at removing that constant chatter, helping me sleep.

I know that not many people have tried meditation at they think it’s a bit ‘out there’, but it really does relax you and clear your mind, I would recommend it to anybody.

For example, I was listening to one the other night and woke up about 4am wondering why I was uncomfortable – I had fallen asleep during the recording and still had my giant headphones on!

I’ve also listened to meditations the night before tests as they help promote positivity and self believe, which is perfect for me, and you do wake up with a much more confident attitude.

Here is a sample video from Youtube 

Tips:

  • The majority of relaxing music is just that, with ocean waves and gentle music. It will just remove the over thinking in your mind and allow you to relax.
  • There are some videos which use things such as white noise and… alpha waves? Some descriptions have an epilepsy warning in them so I would steer clear of them. You can always consult a healthcare professional you want to listen to them.
  • Some tracks are really relaxing others are annoying, and a little cheesy, but it’s about finding something you like. I have had similar results with classical music but I do find that sometimes I end up listening to the music!
  • Last tip, if you have an iPhone and you want to save your battery, once the video starts playing, press the off button on your phone once so the screen goes black. The video will stop playing, but when you press the home key, on the screen you will notice you can press play without seeing the video, just tap the phone screen off again and it will continue playing for you!

I hope you’ll give it a try to see it helps you stay relaxed.

Becky 🙂

 

Welcome to Ardent Journeys

Welcome to Ardent Journeys

I decided to name my blog Ardent 0b458d6722087dab698677362d850f0aJourneys because I feel that life with epilepsy is a life full of journeys. Having epilepsy myself, I have discovered it has had a huge impact in making me the person I am today. I look after my health, have empathy for other people’s health and wellbeing, and appreciate all the support that I have ever received.

However, don’t want to have epilepsy viewed as a negative aspect of life that holds people back, stops them from achieving their dreams, and I don’t want people to be afraid to have to tell anyone that they have epilepsy for fear of that person’s judgement or reaction.

I hope that not only will I be able to post positive stories about my journey through epilepsy, but I also want to raise awareness and educate other people about epilepsy.