Enough

So often I found myself asking;

Am I smart enough?

Am I slim enough?

Am I strong enough?

 

Simple questions sowing seeds of doubt,

Burying its deep roots

To every cell of my mind –

so stubborn to extract.

 

Till one day, enough!

enough of these questions.

 

And I stopped.

 

The roots soon crumbled,

The seeds dissolved,

And I smiled,

  

I am enough

 

 

 

Becky 🙂

Onwards

Onwards I ran,

From the ghosts of my past,

Through the forests I fled,

With no forward plan,

Just onwards I ran,

My sore, aching feet,

Always longing for rest,

Yet further I pushed,

Deep into darkness,

To the cold claws of night,

Hoping to find a feint glimmer of light,

Still onwards I ran, and I ran till I saw,

The bright light of day,

And nothing more.

– Becky

Society

I loathe society,

Always preaching;

What to do,

Where to go,

What we should achieve,

Society says that if we listen,

If we obtain its ‘ideal’ goals,

Happiest will be found,

But is this true?

We cannot all be expected to achieve the same,

Everyone holds such individual dreams,

So, next time society says you have wandered,

Ignored it,

You are living the life you are meant to.

 

 

-Becky

To My Select Few; I Love You

I’m told I’m selective,

Too choosy with others

To hold close in my life,

I believe I have good reason.

Its hard to open up,

Explain your life to someone

View their silent judgements,

And watch them walk away.

They never knew,

But if I become honest,

It means I value you,

It means I trust you.

So If you stay,

Accept me, and witness my weakness,

Know it’s rare,

Know you are part of my select few,

Know that I love you.

My First Childhood Hero

I have planned to periodically write about people who have inspired me.

There are many role models in my life, which include both world-renowned legends and treasured family members. I love discovering new people who inspire me and I look forward to sharing the varying characters with you.

By the way, my list of role models expands continually. I think you can never have too many people to look up to.

The person I am going to write about today was the first person I can truly remember looking up to as a child and aspiring to be like in the future.

I am sure many of you have already guessed who I am about to write about as this day is particularly poignant for them (31/08/2017).

This person is Princess Diana.

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Even though I was only a small child when she passed away, I has always saw her face on the news and in the papers. Although my parents sheltered me from the difficulties that she was dealing with in the early nineties. From my point of view – as a child, I always saw Diana as the princess; of course she would always be in the paper.

After Diana sadly passed away, I soon discovered that there was a little bit more to Diana than I originally knew. I naturally became curious to learn more about her, so my Mum bought me a little Ladybird book about her.I adored that book.

 

I couldn’t believe how many lives she had altered. I learnt about her selfless nature to help others, the fact that she was a devoted mother…and had the best dresses in the world! For me as a little girl she seemed like the perfect hero, who oozed unconditional love. I could not find anything I didn’t like about her.

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Looking back, I think it’s an unusual thing, to be a young child and be inspired by such a strong influential woman, who was committed to helping others and make a good impression on the world. This is something that has stayed with me through to adulthood; Princess Diana is still a powerful influence on my life, as I believe she is for millions of other people.

Twenty years on, people still remember and miss her.

There are very few people in this world that are huge positive influencers, making great changes to the world, breaking down stigmas, and that help and support anyone who needs it.

I am glad that I had Princess Diana was my first role model, I believe she is the best person a child could look up to.

 

 

Thanks for reading,

Becky 🙂

 

Is the Grass Always Greener On The Other Side?

We have all heard the idiom, ‘the grass is always green on the other side’. I think many of us have experienced pangs of envy when we believe other people are achieving more than us or getting further in life.

But as I am the type of person who enjoys observing and listening to others, I learnt long ago that no one’s life is perfect, and know that there is no such thing as a perfect life. Life will throw obstacles in your way and you have to get around them. But I think that many believe that life should be one easy road and give up at the first hurdle.

There have been increasing occasions where I’ll be at a friend or relatives house. They’ll be a feeling a little low, and will tell me about their worries, whether its financial, career etc. then they will refer to another friend or relative and dreamily mention how they admire some aspect of their lives saying how they’ve got it, ‘all sorted out’.

But little do they know that those people they wistfully mention also possess many problems (because they tell me), and they do the same thing, either by mentioning about others that they think have a perfect life – or they refer back to the original person, admiring a part of their life.

It’s like a big circle!  (I don’t say anything as I’m not going to betray trust), but in these increasingly occurring situations I don’t know whether to find the situation funny or sad.

I imagine lining up the whole group of interconnected family and friends and telling them one by one the amazing things that everyone else admires about them.

I think this is something that we frequently overlook. We see people achieving things that we hope for, but we often ignore amazing accomplishments that we have made ourselves, and don’t believe for one second that someone else would want to be in our shoes.

So, is the grass always greener on the other side? No, it isn’t, it’s purely down to the way you view the world. You can’t look at another person and assume that they are happier as you’re only looking at the part of their life that you want to look at. Their best part, which is nice I guess.

But, if you constantly consider people around you to be more successful and happier, then naturally it will tear away at you. I have known people who have been so focused on what others are achieving that they don’t pay enough attention to their own happiness, and that’s the crux of the matter. It doesn’t matter what you’re achieving or what you possess, it’s whether you are happy.

Don’t think for one moment that you must have your life sorted out. I believe the best thing you can do in life is to be happy, let go of the petty everyday problems, appreciate everything in everyday and love everyone in your life.

Thanks for reading!

Becky 🙂